Walk in the park

Pictures of a pleasant afternoon walk in a park in Espoo, with the company of Tania.

 

Although good things have happened lately, today im not feeling the best.  Maybe its because of the finnish course? Well actually theres no problem related to the exam I was so scared of, I had a good exam yesterday and saturday i´ll get the result and is my last class. But unfortunately I have to stop here for now, cause I couldnt sign up for the next level, you all must already know the reason: FULL!!! No news.

Now I started studying finnish I liked it and, actually was no big surprise cause Ive always loved studying languages so I was quite sure I´d love to study it. But is kindof a cold shower now if Ill have to wait until next year to continue the next levels. But there are also of course other reasons to be feeling the way Iam feeling. Im starting to believe Im bipolar, whatever it means. And Im getting tired of this mood switches through the day. Is unbeliavable how one person can be happy and only 1 hour later be desperately unhappy. I have many beliefs of my own and maybe this what Im confirming today is my belief that nobody will ever be happy in its full meaning, in this life. Yes I am pessimistic BUT this is not only pessimism, is realism also, what i see and feel every day. I believe there is another life in heaven with God, after we leave this one and thats the place where everybody will be happy, not this Earth. So, do I get comfort from this fact? Or do I keep struggling in trying to be fully happy or believing it is possible ?

Im just tired of deceptions. I prepare for the worst so I get happy when the best comes, and if the worst comes, well then Im not deceptioned at all.

I dont feel like translating to portuguese today. Anyway I bet I dont have anybody reading this so no problem : )